Grief. Pandemics. A predisposition to introversion. All of these things have a high probability of causing isolation. I've seen myself and others struggle with this version of reality but in the struggle I've found something delicious.

It's dedication to a process I don't particularly like, in this case that of social distancing and staying careful as I learn more about this new virus. I really, really want to do jiu jitsu. It keeps my body and mind healthy, it's food for my spirit. But it's such a risky vector space. And I see friends and acquaintances feeling similarly with things that have meaning for them. But the dangerous unknowns of covid keep me from diving back into the so called normal and part of me is digging that.

I'm having to get resourceful in order to feel fulfilled. I'm having to be inventive. I'm getting creative around my entitlement to a “normal” life. And it's delicious. My friend, willpower, is flexing it's muscles and I'm appreciating the strength I'm finding there.

So, I don't know if I'm right or not as it relates to being careful, but it feels necessary to me. And I'm finding secret things here that I wouldn't otherwise. Secret creative things. You can too

Sna chail'ya